Friday, May 4, 2012

Life as I know it, is changing.

Everything that I have spent the last four years of my newly adult life is coming to an end. Everything that I have learned to do in my life is changing. The one thing that I have done for 80% of my life -- studying, tests, exams, repeat -- this is it. This is the last time I am going to do it. (Well maybe I’ll do it again when I go to grad school, but that a couple of years away).

I have my last final tomorrow, of my undergrad, and my roommate( read bff) moved out today. Everything I have built around in my newly independent life is coming to a close. Sure I’m taking some good friendships with me, some amazing and some awful experiences with me, but the close is near. There is a growing restlessness in me tonight. I can’t sleep (and anyone who knows me, why that is a big deal. I can sleep at the drop of a hat). It could also be because I slept in this morning, and took a long power nap in the evening, or the extra strong iced mocha i had a few hours ago, but the uneasiness inside me, tells me that not it.

And it’s not that I’m scared of the new city, or because I can’t make new friends, I do it all the time, but it’s the sinking feeling of not seeing the old ones for so long. The ones that have become closer than kin. The ones I have spent hours and hours with, of doing nothing. The ones who I will always look back and remember when I think of college. The ones I have gone on long drives with, middle of the night food hunting, hours of baking and cooking (well me cooking, and them tasting) with. The ones that I have lost along the way, and the ones that stuck around. The one thing that I will miss most is the experimenting that we did together, whatever it was regarding. I will however always look back and smile, and not change a thing.

I will miss the 'omg', the 'you have to hear this', the 'are you serious', the 'wth's and 'wtf's and lmao, rotfl and lols, spent with all the girls, which came up every time we time we conversed. the over exaggerated drama while re-telling every juicy bit of gossip.
I’ll miss my grad students friends, who never let me feel left out (okay they totally did it a couple of times, but I’ll let bygones be bygones) who cooked for me infinite number of times, who gave me the look when I played hip hop music and who drove me around when I couldn’t.

I love you all. Thank you for being a part of the most important stage of my life.